I returned to work at school two weeks ago and I have found it has resulted in a lot less time for me to indulge myself in my creative, artistic pursuits. The evenings and weekends seem to disappear in sleep as I’m so tired.
I do seem to be coping a lot better with the stresses and strains of being a teacher, which is a good thing.
The mandala above was finished earlier this week. I am debating whether to add colour and/or shadows or to leave it as it is. I shall see how the fancy takes me over the weekend.
It’s been a while since my last blog post. The reasons for this are many but include focusing on the art projects “Color Me Calm” and “Color Me Happy“, a return to work after a very extended period of illness, and now working on a book project called “Entangled” for Dover Publications.
It’s been a busy but exciting time with these projects, and I’m sure there’ll be more in the pipeline for me. I’m hoping that this will result in me posting to this blog more often, with updates and sneak previews from time to time of the projects I’m involved in.
I have also had to create a facebook page for myself, Angela Porter Artwyrd.
Here’s a sneaky preview of one of the Mandalas in one of the ‘Color Me’ books.
I’m not good at blowing my own trumpet, but as the cat is out of the bag it’s time for me to say how chuffed I am to have been approached by Jeannine Dillon, editor for Race Point publishers, to do the artwork/illustrations for two books full of colouring templates with text written by Lacy Mucklow and the design put together by Jacqui Carlton.
The first book, Color Me Calm, is due for release in October this year.
The second book is titled Color Me Happy and is also due for release around the same time.
The titles say it all!
I’ve also been working with Bev Robinson of Love Thy Thread and she’s converted some of my artwork into cross-stitch charts available exclusively from this website, just follow the link to me, Angela Porter.
Another piece of news is that I’ll have a third book of artwork coming out early next year with Dover Publishing, Jason Schneider is the editor there. More news as things get done there.
And with that, I must get back to doing the coloured illustrations for Color Me Calm. Such good therapy for me while I’m recovering from a long-term illness of my own.
It has been a while since I last made a post to my blog.
I have been struggling with vagueness and lack of focus with the medication I’m taking, and this one I’m on now doesn’t suit either. As well as the vagueness, I’m constantly on edge and fidgety, and the medication is supposed to treat that not cause it. Have to give it a couple more weeks before it’ll be changed though. I’m still away from work as a result.
In spite of all of this I’ve still been busy with art, though the focus for the projects I’m involved in has been lacking at times, but just ‘doodling’ with no constraints or requirements does help me settle a little and also is something I can do that doesn’t need that focus.
In the summer I signed contracts to do the artwork for two books linked to art therapy. In the last week I was approached by another company to do one book for them in the first instance, and if it goes well then there could be a whole series of them. My hope is that I’ll have enough contracts and work lined up that I can go kind of part time at work. That won’t be for a while and I need to get myself better first, but the part time may be a way of helping me remain ‘better’ in the future. Time will tell.
Another new calendar year, along with the hopeful wishes that go along with it.
For you, I wish peace, love, joy, good health and all that you need for a happy life, not just today, but every single moment of your existence. I wish the same for all on Earth, which will only come about when humanity as a whole cares more about the living things that we share this planet with than money or power or material things.
For myself, I wish for a way out of the dark and difficult places I find myself in. I would also like to feel I ‘belong’ somewhere, and with that goes human friendship and companionship. A more peaceful, harmonious and less confrontational and stressful workplace, when I return, would also be a huge bonus.
Another astronomical cycle completed as the Earth returns to the point of solstice once again. The first day of Winter. A time to reflect on the year behind, successes and otherwise. A time to be willing to let go of all that has run it’s course, either by being completed or no longer needed, to make space for new growth as the Sun grows in power once again, increasing the amount of light flooding the Earth (well the Northern Hemisphere).
For whatever reason, it seems more natural to me to follow markers in time and the symbolism of the waxing and waning cycles of the Sun and how that relates to the patterns that we see reflected in our lives than does anything else. All a bit odd coming from a scientist, perhaps.
This year I will be looking on it as a continuation of a new start in my life. I have been off work since the middle of November and it really is time to let go of the old patterns of negative thinking about myself that have so blighted my life and experiences. It’s not going to be easy; fifty years of them whispering and disempowering and controlling me is a very long time. It can be done and I have to see it as a long term process, with the help of my doctor. It’s not been easy to admit I need help with all of this, or to acknowledge, truthfully to myself, the impact it has all had on myself.
However long it has taken me, I’m at that point where little steps are needed, and I do have to understand it is little steps, that this can’t be sorted instantly or overnight.
There’s been a complex set of circumstances that led me to this point of requesting help, not least of which was the nagging of a dear friend to get the help needed; it took them over a year to get through to me, that’s how much in denial I have been. However, we did get there.
I’m not prepared to air the circumstances here, where anyone and everyone can see them. Those who know me will know what they are, maybe. Those who don’t can infer for themselves what this may be about.
All I know is that I’m quietly on the mend now, slowly but surely, and that is all that matters.
My love and thanks go out to that dear friend who nagged me. My love and thanks to my little sister who has made sure that I don’t totally lock myself away all the time. My love and thanks to those I’ve seen and spoken to in the past few weeks, and before that, who have helped and supported me.
This is small, maybe 12cm in diameter.